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i am so exhausted of being misunderstood here. this exhaustion leds to boredom and that leads to not caring. i left an hour and a half meeting today being completely misunderstood. we are planning for the new dean to come in july. we have been meeting every other week to prepare for this. we are still talking about how to plan for the dean. when asked for ideas on how to best explain to the dean how things work now and how we like things to work i suggest a few things. i have a lot of experience with stragic planning and the development of vision and mission statements. but the points is bring up as steps to follow aren’t disagreed with they just simply aren’t understood…at all. it’s literally like i am speaking a different language.

quite frankly i am rarely so misunderstood. so maybe i’m just due to be misunderstood. or maybe this is fuel for my theory that this town is full of crazies. it seems like people are going through the motions of being people, people who have jobs and those jobs have purpose. it is a somewhat robotic culture fueled by mediocrity. this is also fuel for the theory that this town is a set for a reality tv series that is yet to air and only serves to bring me to my breaking point.

so it’s sunday and i’m 2/3rds into my 14 hour work day. we are open extended hours for final projects but none of the student lab monitors could pick up the hours. so far it’s been good. i was able to bring in my keyboard and practice for my final (tuesday). i think i might actually pull off a consistent beat and accurate notes for the test. i also worked through an advanced photoshop tutorial which was right up my ally. most tutorials and classes i’ve been going to have been too dumbed down for me. i washed the the inside and out of my office windows. i shutter to think the last time they were washed. jeff came by and surprised me and i took a break for about 45 minutes.

um, now i have about 5 hours left to the work day. i am growing tired. the semester has worn on for so long. i realized the other day i have not had a break since my mom died two years ago. i am in dire need of some me time. i am hoping to go camping in two weeks. this will be a good rest before i head down to texas.