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i had a fun weekend. jeff and i worked more on the house and a lot in the yard. the yard is really shaping up. i planted the tomato plants i’ve been growing into an existing garden plot in the yard. if i actually harvest tomatos i will be thrilled. i weeded and added mulch to the beds by the deck. and to top it off there was a killer sale on tiki torches at target. neither one of us had a yard during the tiki craze so we are making up for lost time.

we are having a housewarming next weekend. i think it will be very fun. we are cooking a ton of food and having a few people over.

i was recapping the weekend as i was sitting out on the porch last evening. i found myself feeling anxious. i have a happy home life, a good job, and nice things and i find myself fearful i will lose it.

when i ask myself why i feel this fear several reasons come up. it feels like an eternity since i have felt this content, since before my mom died. also not much in my life so far has been secure. a lot of moving, a lot of struggle, a lot of family members coming and going, a lot of work for very little money, and no family support system.

i guess i have more to live for now than i have before which also means i have more to lose. i guess i will just keep trying to appreciate what i have, keep material life in perspective, and not take my things or my abilities for granted.

most people know i have no reservations stating my issues with life. that is why on days like today i like to blog. to make public notice of the hapiness in my life. i have been reminded the last couple of days of many things in my life that make me happy.

it is such a unique time for jeff and i. we both have jobs we like and that challenge us. we have tied the knot (in our own way). we have moved into a house (with out having a mortgage). and we are trying settling our debt. i feel like things are just really getting started with our life together.

we are pretty good about not taking times like these for granted but are very human. i wake up every morning in our new house and wonder when it will be before it is common place. it is such a fun time to notice something new each day in the house.

it is also a joy to do yard work and finally get back to cantainer gardening (i put my 30 plus plants up for adoption when i left austin). i hope to get out to the farmers market this weekend and stock up on herbs. we are planning a house warming party in two weekends and i want the deck to look great.

anyway, these small details are a real joy in my life now and i hope i can continue to find these small joys not only in this house but also in life.

bosco has taken to the doggie door like it is nobodys business. he seems more satisfied. he has complete control of wether he’s in or out.

 saturday night we were so excited to sleep in our real bed for the first time in a week. i had just gone to bed and jeff comes in and says he needs my help. it seems bosco was under the deck barking away. sure enough he had tracked a smell under the deck and was digging like a gopher (maybe trying to find a gopher mind you). it looked like he had plenty of room to get out and didn’t seem stuck so we left him to his business and headed to bed. later that night he was barking. i peaked through the blinds to see what the deal was. all i saw was him standing in the middle of the deck just barking. just looking around and barking.

he is such a funny little creature. we enjoy him very much. i’ll have to get some action shots of him in the back yard. until then make sure you have enjoyed the pics i have of him in the photo gallery.

we got all of our stuff moved into the new house. it has been a really long week. our decision to camp out in our new house the week before we moved started to wear on me. our air mattress blower almost exploded so we were sleeping on the floor for a week. the floor gets more comfortable as the nights go on and a shot of tylonal before bed doesn’t hurt either.

the move took a lot out of us, especially me. my body is still getting used to biking every where. moving all day is one thing, biking a few miles to get the uhaul and then moving all day is another thing. don’t get me wrong i am thankful not to have a car and to get my exercise as a part of regular life activities. i think it will be the only way i will get fit and stay fit.

the puzzle of putting things away has begun. we have more space overall in the sense of yards, decks, storage shed, etc. but not in the sense of cabinets and closets.

i have been keeping up with the latest shuttle mission. there has been a lot of “space drama” with the delayed lift off, a new planet discovered, and the shuttle damage that is being repaired in space for the first time today.

there has been one reminder that has hit with more weight than before. the space station been in orbit for over 6 years and for 4 of those years it has had residents. people who have spent hundreds of days at a time living in space. this really shakes me up. i can comfortably say in a conversation “that doesn’t surprise me, i mean, we’ve had people living in space for years.”

it seems the space program gets no front page news unless tiles are falling off the ship, people are blowing up over texas, or we have a new planet. how about replacing sports or murder news with space news? not everyday but maybe on tuesdays.

i don’t think i have been very good at describing the “deep impact” space has had on me lately. perhaps you may think it’s silly a gal can get her kicks thinking about outer space. well, at least i’m not an idiot who thinks i’m stupid.