this is my blog

i have been unsure what to do with my life for sometime now. i always seem to stumble into things that interested me and i went that direction until the next thing came along. today is a day i feel very aimless. events have come about in my job that, wether the intent is there or not, that everyone around me recognizes that i do a great job but there is apparently no way to adequately compensate me for a job done well above it’s requirements. i have been in the work force too long to tolerate that “way of work”.

the only real power (in this case to advance) an employee has is to search for a new job and try to find something with better options. so the question is do i stick around at this job while everyone else on the tech staff gets a promotion or do i hit the road and hope for a better opportunity?

it’s times like these i question my path in life so far but then that gets into the shoulda, coulda, wouldas. it is so easy to fall into the trap of comparing yourself to others and defining what success is. it is all relative and subjective. the important thing is to find some peace with what you are doing in life and find the balance of confidence and humility. on most days i don’t question it and am thankful for what i’ve earned. on a day like today i want the world to stop and recognize what i’ve done and how hard i work.