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the last two weeks of the fall semester were brutal. there was a lot work to be done which equated a lot of sleepless nights. i am very excited that i earned a 3.2 for the semester. this is the highest semester gpa i’ve ever earned. my overall gpa is 2.94 so if i play my cards right this semester i’ll push it to at least a 3.0.

my semester break was fruitful. i have come to rely on winter break to digest all of the changes i have experienced that year. my roommate was gone for break so i had all of the solitude i wanted. what hit me the most over break wasn’t so much the past year but the future that awaits me. i am all set to graduate in may but have absolutely no idea what’s next. it’s a great situation to be in to not have any strings or weights attached to bloomington. i can pick up and go wherever they will allow a texan and her two little doggies. having this freedom is great but it also makes me realize that i am alone and do not have companion that i can experience mutual love and care. this is a current theme for me right now. when i think about the coolest job i could have i am not sure i want that anymore than i want to find a wonderful man that i can experience life with. i know that i cannot be fulfilled by a just job alone.

i have been sweating my money situation quite a bit. i did finally get offered a part-time job that will start as my internship is ending so that is a great relief. even with that income it’s not enough to cover expenses. i was left with decision to work full-time and be in school or take money from my retirement. it’s a bad decision either. if i work full-time i know that my schoolwork will suffer and i’ll risk failing some classes therefore jeopardizing graduation. if i take money out of retirement i am really taking the equivalent of 6x that amount out (it’s value at retirement age). i decided on friday to rob my future and take the retirement money. i recognize though that when push comes to shove i am among the fortunate to have any money like this to tap into. i hope to be able to compensate for my actions when i’m in the working world again.

my last semester of courses looks promising at the one week in mark. i am taking: war propaganda, religion and society (a sociology course), history of 20th century photography, underwater photo and video, and swimming (just for exercise). these are stimulating subjects and i look forward to learning all i can about them.