a lot on my mind
I had a roller coaster weekend. Every down point of the weekend was met with a high point. There are a few heavy things going on in my life and I think now that it is spring break, I am focusing on them.
I don’t feel especially chatty so I will digress to bullet points:
- I feel no relief from contacting my birth mother. She is as uncaring as I imagined her.
- Turns out my brother is not a real talkative person. I think knowing where I am and exchanging an email every month or so will serve him fine.
- I have talked to my grandpa on the phone a couple of times. He’s pretty fun and seems to be the glue of the Jones clan. He sent me information about the Joneses’ family heritage. My maternal side of the family is Welsh and German. Feels good to have a place to point to and say “part of me is from there.”
- Work is going OK. I still enjoy my job and the people I work with. My job position is in the budget process now and I should find out in a few weeks if I have a job after August. The good news is that if it goes through it’ll likely include a pay increase.
- Finances in general are weighing on me. I regret where I live. I love it, it’s just so expensive. I think this weekend I will see if there are any studios available in my building. That should save me $100-$150 a month which would give me more breathing room, well financially anyway. I can handle a move in my building on my own with the help of a hand truck. I did my taxes and at first run through I owe the IRS a substantial amount of money. I will run the numbers again and hope that I made an error. If not it looks like it’s payment plan time for me. If that’s the case I may see if I can pick up a day a week at the Apple Store for a few months.
- I have been in Chicago for 7 months and am virtually alone. I am grateful to have people to interact with everyday but am longing for more. I think the dates I have gone on have been a catalyst to my loneliness. I want local friends and local love. I am tired of doing everything by myself.
- The two women I talk to the most here in Chicago are Kitty and Amelia. They are both my age and and divorced. We get along well so I am bummed they will be going back to China in three months.
- Date with karate guys was terrible. He kept staring at the women sitting at the table next to us. I went on a date with another man on Thursday. I really enjoyed myself. We are going out again on Thursday.
Posted by in 19:37:02
very good!
I say, bullet points are better than say, bullet holes.
-skippy
skippy, i think that is my new favorite t-shirt idea!